Mr. Fuller speaks of several sudden changes in his feelings at different times in his earlier life, but which left him still in his sins. Then, finding there was no good in himself, he says, "One morning, I think in November, 1769, I walked out by myself, with an unusual load of guilt upon my conscience. The remembrance of my sin for a long time back, the breach of my vows, and the shocking termination of my former hopes and affections, all uniting together, formed a burden which I knew not how to bear. The reproaches of a guilty conscience seemed like the gnawing worm of hell. I thought, surely this must be an earnest of hell itself! The fire and brimstone of the bottomless pit seemed to burn within my bosom. In reflecting upon my broken vows, I saw that there was no truth in me. I saw that [88] God would be perfectly just in sending me to hell, and to hell I must go, unless I were saved of mere grace. * * * Like Esther (Esther 4:16), I seemed reduced to extremities, impelled by dire necessity, to run all hazards. Yet it was not altogether from a dread of wrath that I fled to this refuge; for I well remember, that I felt something attracting in the Saviour. I must, I will trust my sinful soul in His hands--'If I perish, I perish.' I was determined to cast my soul upon Christ, thinking, perhaps He would save me. In this way I continued above an hour, weeping and supplicating mercy, for my Saviour's sake: and as the eye of the mind was more and more fixed upon Him, my guilt and fears were gradually and insensibly removed. I now found rest for my troubled soul."--Sinner, if you seek Christ's pardon, with all your heart, you, too, shall find peace and rest to your poor troubled soul.

[THW 88-89]